Confessions Of A Wind Up Clanging Monkey Toy

November 14, 2015 in Bro. Heath's Blogs, The Holy Bride


Yes, it’s true. I confess… there are many times I have been a wind up clanging monkey toy. God told me so.
You see, I have come to realize that all the intellectual persuasion or eloquent words that I can muster up to try to “reveal God and His truths” to others is truly a vain and pathetic attempt by itself… because in the end, “God and His truth” can only be revealed through love. “Speaking truth” or even “writing truth” may have a slight influence on the hearts and minds of people but truly the only real persuasion that reaches people in the inner core of their soul is “living truth”.

People are little impressed with “our words” these days because quite frankly, “words are a dime a dozen”. Words really are.. cheap. It’s easy to speak or write words, even “truthful” words. But it’s a lot more work to actually love someone. Words can not feed hungry bellies. Words can not clothe the poor, can not shelter the homeless. Our words can impress the intellects of others and that’s about it.

The devil is into “words” even, “truthful words” as long as love doesn’t show up. Some of the most religious people I know can talk a very awesome, convincing “Christian” talk. They have actually talked so much that they have convinced themselves that they are the “real deal”. Because they can quote the scriptures forwards and backwards, they can argue their doctrinal positions with clear articulation and persuasion, they can even charismatically move a crowd into a pep rally frenzy but unfortunately, none of that impresses God or the Holy Spirit… In fact, it is a substitute for the Holy Spirit who only operates in love. Paul said, “But I will come to you shortly, if the Lord will, and will know, not the SPEECH of them which are puffed up, but the power. For the kingdom of God is NOT IN WORD, but in power.” 1 Corinthians 4:20

The devil likes to create “wind up clanging monkey toys” in the church. And God has properly rebuked me for allowing the devil to “piggyback” this very religious spirit on me as well. These type of people in the church are always “speaking great swelling words” about their religious convictions, their doctrinal positions, etc. They are usually very easy to engage in conversation which usually turns into a one sided, over powering monologue of their religious perspective. Many times they are argumentative and quarrelsome. They thrive on contention and a spirit of confrontation… and to put icing on that cake, they actually think themselves as great spiritual guides to the “blind” and “ignorant”. How many times have I seen a religious person get a piece of knowledge that they think has been given to them “exclusively” by God and begin to spout it as gospel fact and crush anyone who dare have an alternative viewpoint. Since now they have a corner on the “truth” it becomes their duty and calling to lambast or ostracize anyone with an opposing view. Instead of seeking to understand and to love someone by showing kindness and patience, they rudely cut people off and they do it thinking they do God a service. But our brother Paul tells us, “And the servant of the Lord must not strive (be quarrelsome); but be gentle to all men, apt to teach, patient, In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth; And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will.” 2 Timothy 2:24-26

However, A wind up clanging monkey toy is not necessarily identified by contentious or obnoxious behavior. Sometimes they use sweet, buttery, deceptive words that seem benevolent and even inspirational. They have perfected the art of charm and persuasion to manipulate the heartstrings of others for some sort of gain. They use words to stir the emotions and feed the egos of others. Instead of walking in real love, they walk in a pretentious love to get what they want. Their clanging cymbal is a soft spoken or charismatic word that soothes and tickles the ears of the hearer. It doesn’t speak the truth but instead speaks falsehood and lies dressed up as truth. These people are usually very successful and end up holding a bag full of gold stolen from those who willingly gave it to them. They do not walk in sacrificial love but they can sure talk it.

You see, the secret of the true, “life changing gospel” is not in the “words” that are preached but in the power of love that is demonstrated through the caring hearts and good deeds of the preacher. Yes, get rid of your preacher if he does not demonstrate a true compassionate heart of love and a lifestyle of charitable deeds. Even if he is the most intellectual, eloquent speaker or has the most charming, charismatic personality, he is useless to God’s kingdom if he does not truly care for God’s people and live to love others.

By the way, the pastor’s job is not just to deliver a couple great sermonettes every week and then be some plastic smiling greeter as people funnel out of the church building. His whole life is to be a sacrificial servant who loves visiting widows and orphans, loving the poor and reaching out to the misfortunate and broken. But American decadent culture and “religion” has created “church hirelings” who preach nice motivational “words” on Sunday but wine and dine in their multi million dollar fancy homes and drive their Cadillacs as part of the “benefits package” for their meager “words” or verbal or written contributions to the kingdom. But tell me, how can you relate to the poor and be a “sacrificial servant of the Most High God” living far above the normal standards of most common, ordinary folks? Are these ministers really showing the love of God through a benevolent, selfless, sacrificial life to those around them struggling to pay bills while they milk them for more offerings to pay the mortgage on their sprawling five mansion estate? Wow, how is it so many church folks are duped into sending their love offerings and tithes to these wind up clanging monkey toys?
“But whoever has this world’s good, and sees his brother have need, and shuts up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwells the love of God in him? My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.” 1 John 3:17-18

The truth is, our words or speeches, no matter how passionate or motivational or “scripturally sound”, they are not the litmus test to our Christianity. It is our manner of living. It is how we treat people, all peoples- the believer and the unbeliever, the “saved” and the lost, the sinners and the saints. It is our love- our kindness, patience, mercy and ability to forgive quickly and readily. And how quickly we can recognize our own sins and shortcomings, and readily humble ourselves and ask for forgiveness.
It is how compassionate we are when we see others suffering, not to turn a blind eye or deaf ear to those less fortunate. It is how we cheerfully and selflessly give up our own “stuff” to meet the needs of others. It is how we remain unattached to the material things of this world and will at the drop of a hat, give it to Jesus by giving it to the lease of these His brethren. This is love. This is the “Christianity” that our Lord Jesus demonstrated- not just spoke with mere words.

I confess… I have been a wind up clanging monkey toy. I have deceived myself and my “religion” with the “knowledge” and “words” I thought were truth. But truth is not merely a perspective in the mind but a lifestyle lived out. “If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this man’s religion is worthless. Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world.” James 1:26-27

I want to genuinely ask forgiveness from my brothers and sisters in Christ and also to those of you who are not yet believers to forgive me for such hypocrisy and vain religion. I hurt many of you with my clanging cymbals. I turned some of you away with my lack of true love or care for you soul. Most of all, I misrepresented my Lord and Savior Jesus with mixed signals and double standards. Please forgive me. I do not want to be a clanging cymbal, or a useless servant and a hindrance to the gospel of Jesus. I do not want to one day stand before the Lord exposed as a “wind up clanging monkey toy”. Please forgive me and pray for me. I want to properly love people with the sacrificial love of Jesus. Jesus did so much for me and I just want to do now as much as I can to share His love with others… without the “religious trappings” of “talking the talk but not fully walking the walk”.

“If I speak with the tongues (the language) of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.” 1 Corinthians 13:1

Yes, the world is full of hypocrites but we can only judge one of them- ourself. We can only change one of them too, ourself. So I resign “my religion” to the dungheap of self righteous filthy rags. I no longer stand on any virtue of my own to cast a condescending eye towards others… I stand on Christ alone. And My judgment is given to me to judge myself, first and foremost… to “take the beam out of my own eye” so that later I can “help take the speck out of my brother’s eye”.

Someone once said, “Preach the gospel to others and if necessary use words.” Jesus said it this way, “In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works (not just good words) and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16

Lastly, I put away my clanging cymbals. I no longer want to make noise… I want to produce light. Light, so that others might see God’s love in action.

“For our gospel did not come to you in word only, but also in power and in the Holy Spirit and with full conviction; just as you know what kind of men we proved to be among you for your sake.” 1 Thessalonians 1:5

“And I, brothers, when I came to you, came not with excellency of speech or of wisdom, declaring to you the testimony of God. For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified. And I was with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling. And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man’s wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power: That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.” 1 Corinthians 2:1-4


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